Too much time with family, too little time with friends.
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Where are you now by Justin Bieber
Topic: Lonely
Man, this Justin Beiber song is making me bawl my eyes out. Just what I needed, no sarcasm. So tired of being left behind. Friends are always busy, especially those I want to see the most. Why? I want to find a job, but I cannot. Too far away, or not experienced enough or not old enough or some other issue. Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore. I do not want to keep living like this. Take me and renew me. I am tired of "this" person I am. Why is it when I need the people the closest to me; they are gone? Or not available? I am so depressed today. I really do not understand why or how I got this way. I wish boys/men would be honest about how they are instead of always pretending that they are okay when they are not. Sadness is not weakness it is an emotion/feeling. If God didn't want boys/men to cry he would not have given them tear ducts. Real men cry. I thought that I was mostly done with being so overwhelmed and depressed. I thought it was my turn to help someone else. Why is this emptiness suddenly becoming impossible to bare? Why is it suddenly so much worse?