Mood:  accident prone

Why am I having some major issues? One moment I as happy as can be and the next I am feeling lower than insects. :( I feel worse each time I feel bad. I feel crying, but I can't cry or I can't get all the emotions out. I keep feeling stressed out. I went to a second hand store to get some bargains or a bargain on a pair of jeans. I tried countless pairs on. Most didn't fit and I am not fat or even chubby...Yet it made me feel like a size 20. I'm like a size 7 to 9.

I found one pair I decided to get. They are so cute! :) I also got my refund check back today, so that made me feel incredibly better and happier. But I still feel like crap. It seems like the days I do best is when I am near a friend or a by I used to like talks to me. Then I start liking them again! Ugh What's wrong with me? Why Can't I just leave the stupid memories in the past? I keep comparing them with today's experiences and keep wishing I could go back. I want to relive my past. I can't though. It sucks. 

I don't know wht, but college is seriously a big issue for me. I keep having to catch up on something or redo something or do more homework or studying... It never ends! It's exhausting. It seems like it's sucking all the time, energy, life and happiness out of me. :( 

I want summer! I want it so bad! I feel like I need it. Like a mentally sick person needs medication. :( Summer is the pill to my sickness. Or the answer to my problems..LOL 

These journal entries/diaries are like therapy. :) They make me feel so much better. It's almost like an addiction...but not. It's good for me! :)

Boys are so frustrating right now. Usually their actions are easy to understand. Not lately.  Or maybe the stress is frying some of those brains cells that convert "boy sense" to "girl sense." LoL That's probably it.

Need to do homework. Don't want to do homework. Ging to do it anyway. I have  to go do homework before it gets too late. (My conscious is applauding my wise decision loudly!) :)

Toodles!