All I know
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Broken by Lifehouse & Cover my eyes by La Roux
Topic: ~Life~
I just want you here. I feel and believe that I need you. But you are gone. I cannot let go of  every thought and word that I had once believed. They are lost, yet they seem so near. I am waiting for something I cannot name. I tried to stay protected. I did not succeed. I ended up broken and damaged. I grieve for relief, but I have just found more pain. More situations and memories to analyze to gain a better idea of what happened. What I did not understand, what have I lost? Will you ever know the depth of how I feel? I have tried my best to tell you, yet you stay untouched; even more far away. My heart longs for the essence of your soul. Which was so beautiful, rare and profound. I know there is a part of you that wants me to stay. You may deny it, but it's there. I guess you want to hide it. There are parts of you that are unknown. I want to discover their meaning, the reason for them. I want to know you better than anyone else. I want to feel your sadness and know your doubts. I want to know what inspires you so much. You may believe that  your pain is hidden, but it's not. I see through it all. All the acts, all the charm, all this anger-I see the the overflowing pain. What made you this way? Who did this to you? Why are you still hurting? I am the one person who will always care, always listen  and always want to know why.  I keep trying to grab that which I cannot claim.