I want Cole still. I don't know if he wants me. I wish I understood how he feels. I have no idea?! What should I do? Text him? Play it as friendly? Ignore him? I saw him today. I pushed him. Then I said hey. He said, " Hey how are you?" I said good, " how about you?" And then I believe he said good, also. Then we had to leave for the Alice in Wonderland movie. He came in with a bunch of other people. Into the Value K store or whatever store it was. I saw him right away, but I don't know if he saw me. LOL Probably not. Oh, well. It doesn't matter...THAT much. I got so nervous when I saw him. I bet I got nervous, because I poured out my heart to him. I loved the Alice in Wonderland movie! IT was awesome.

You don't have to text me anymore. It's not like you really wanted to anyways. I finally get it. You don't care. The only thing that kept you in contact with me was your own dirty thoughts. I am tired of hanging on every word you say. I am tired of being weak and depressed. You are only holding me back. I don't need your approval or attention anymore. I can I finally see that I do not need you, to feel good inside. I am okay by myself. I was once was not. I was under your control. I pretended that I wasn't, but acting did not change reality. You and I could have been so strong. If you only worked for what you thought you wanted. But I guess that's irreverent to you; now. You may think that it's not over, but the truth is that the end has arrived; and it arrived earlier than today.