I want to do all kinds of amazing things in my life. But I don't want to do the typical things that "everybody" else does. If everybody says I want to that or this, it makes me want to do something else even if in the beginning I also wanted to do it. Sometimes I wish i was all grown up, so that I could fly away to some other country. But I guess that it will be okay in the a few years,I'll get all this figured out.

I knew you, but not well
Saw more, and was intrigued
At first only friends, then feelings
developed on both sides
You told me, but
I didn't tell you
I wanted to tell you
Everyone said don't
Now I'm sorry,
confused
You're with a girl
Don't know what to do
I wish I could rewind time
I would change things
between me, and you
My heart is crippled
I cried over you
you never knew
Your memory is a constant slide show in my mind
Won't leave me alone
Endless torment
I guess I didn't mean that much or you wouldn't
have replaced me so fast

Harsh reality
Current mood: annoyed

Sometimes I come to a harsh reality stop sign in the middle of my life’s road. It’s hard to realize, that is the way things are, and there is nothing I can do about it. Quite often I wish there was something I could do about, but more often there isn’t aything I can. Sometimes I wish I could go anywhere to get my mind of those thngs, but usually there isn’t some place I can escape to for a while or even a coupe days. Some days I wish I could be all alone, and not have to worry about seeing anyone or having to do anything. But I guess I must be asking for too much, or I am blind, and cannot see the obvious.

People say that in your life there will be something your great at. But what if there isn't?
What if you weren't good at anything and you always needed reassurance?
What if you went through your whole life always wondering and wanting to be somebody else?
What if it took must of your life trying to gain something and as soon as you gained it, you lost it?
What if through your whole life you needed this one characteristic or person in your life so you could persevere, but you didn't have that person or characteristic?
What if someone you loved kept hurting you, and you couldn't forgive them,and you were really bitter?
What if all you ever dreamed of and wanted was out of your reach?
Some what ifs, I was thinking about the other day.