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Friday, 28 May 2010

Harsh reality

by jajajoybinks on March 17, 2008

Harsh reality
Current mood: annoyed

Sometimes I come to a harsh reality stop sign in the middle of my life’s road. It’s hard to realize, that is the way things are, and there is nothing I can do about it. Quite often I wish there was something I could do about, but more often there isn’t aything I can. Sometimes I wish I could go anywhere to get my mind of those thngs, but usually there isn’t some place I can escape to for a while or even a coupe days. Some days I wish I could be all alone, and not have to worry about seeing anyone or having to do anything. But I guess I must be asking for too much, or I am blind, and cannot see the obvious.

Posted by lorelei.rose at 2:47 AM EDT
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What if....

by jajajoybinks on March 24, 2008

People say that in your life there will be something your great at. But what if there isn't?
What if you weren't good at anything and you always needed reassurance?
What if you went through your whole life always wondering and wanting to be somebody else?
What if it took must of your life trying to gain something and as soon as you gained it, you lost it?
What if through your whole life you needed this one characteristic or person in your life so you could persevere, but you didn't have that person or characteristic?
What if someone you loved kept hurting you, and you couldn't forgive them,and you were really bitter?
What if all you ever dreamed of and wanted was out of your reach?
Some what ifs, I was thinking about the other day.

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January 27, 2010

Ugh, Monte is being stupid! Last Thursday I told my teacher who then told my class that I was not going to school the next day. I didn't show up to school because I was at a Winter retreat. Apparently (according to my friend Sandra) Monte said he was going to drop out of our school because he missed too many days and he didn't want to petition to come back. When students at my school petition they have to convince the teachers to let them come back to school and prove to them that they (as students) want to be there at school. Convincing the teachers to let you come back isn't hard. I'm pretty sure everyone who has petitioned has gotten back in. But (according to my friend Sandra) Monte thinks that if you have to petition you fail all your casses. Which couldn't be more wrong. He's being lame and immature. Ugh Oh, well. And if he leaves I probably won't see him again, because I'm going to graduate in two blocks (which means I'll be done by March 19th!) I don't want him to leave. =(

Posted by lorelei.rose at 2:45 AM EDT
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February 06, 2010

Why does it matter if my status is about him or not? What's wrong with being infatuated with a boy? Nothing!! Someone doesn't have to know someone else really well to like them! Ugh She sent my friend a text that said he thought I was cute. My friend told me he thought that. Later on (I believe it was the next day) she asked my friend if I got the message. My friend said yes and then she said that he didn't say that! It doesn't bother me that he didn't say that, because he told my friend he thinks I am really pretty and very funny! :) The other day I told him that he looks really good in black and he said, "thanks" and then he said, "you look good in anything!" Awe. =}
So much drama! Ugh. I wish a *certain* girl wasn't so mean and back-stabbing. Those *so called* texts from him were just her trying to make me feel bad. People are telling me she's doing this because she can't get him/didn't and she's jealous. Maybe she is. I thought she was my friend. I guess not. I didn't think I'd ever be the object of such hateful words from her. I wish her boyfriend wasn't Monte's best friend or that she wasn't Monte's best friend's boyfriend. =/ I wish I was certain about how Monte feels for me and if he has a girlfriend or not. I have been told so many things about him, I really don't know what to believe in?! Why can't my life be a little simpler? My life minus this drama would be amazing! :) Even with it my life is still amazing. I have to remind myself not to sink down to her level. I feel like deleting from my face-book friends list. But I don't want to get on her or her boyfriend or Monte's bad side. :(

Posted by lorelei.rose at 2:43 AM EDT
Updated: Friday, 28 May 2010 2:45 AM EDT
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February 16, 2010

Ugh, I hate when you find out that there's truth in a rumor or that the rumor was the whole truth. :( And that what you found out was not just a rumor. Why do people have to have such low standards? Where did all the people with morals go? Often it feels like I am the only one left. ;/ I have been told that if the you don't really like/care for the guy you like friends' or your friends don't like him....there's probably a very good reason. And the person probably isn't worthy of liking. That's the deal with the guy I like...not just I don't really care for his friends, but my friends don't like him. They told me I deserve better (even my teacher told me this) and one of my same friends thinks he's not "boyfriend" material. I agree. There's also a saying that goes like this, "You can tell a lot from a person from who their friends are.

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