Mood:  cool

I have never known so much beauty in one person, but there is also so much pain. I try to imagine, nevertheless I can't. You gave me a hope that love does exist. It's not just some fairytale that's unattainable to hold.

I miss you so much. I wish you could see my heart, my thoughts, these words and all these feelings that go crazy when I am near you. Every romantic movie or sad song that is about love reminds me of you.

 How can I let you go? What if I never feel this way again about anyone? You are the only one I truly want. Can you not see? Or do you just not feel it too? I love so many things about you. Even the bad things I adore. Sometimes they overwhelm my patience, but I still admire you so. 

 I want to marry you. Have your first born and all the rest. I want to give you son. I want the child to be ours. I want to dedicate my life to being and serving you.  

I know you have been hurt and you need to heal. I understand that there are walls you put up to guard yourself from being hurt once again. 

You have me all tangled up in a dream so beautiful...so beautiful I am afraid I will never fully know or get to hold. 

 Man I have so much to write/blog about on this topic! hahhaha

I feel this way about  this boy who's girlfriend recently (by two weeks or so) got  pregnant. I felt and thought that he was the a lot like the future "one."  I liked him and still do more than any boy I have ever known. It kills me inside to know that may be if I did things a little bit differently or sad things I didn't say earlier...we could have been together or at least still friends. I wish I could be having his child. His first born, but no she gets the privilege to have his child.  =/