Three of my biggest wishes concerning my desires :)
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Free to be me- Francesca Battiselli

I want to be content in whatever dilemma I am in or whatever phase or step I am taking in life! I want to find enjoyemnt in all the little pleasures of life! Focus on those when everything seems to be going horribly!

 I want to be the girl no guy can have! I alreday am! I love my sucecss! And God's protection also has had a lot to do with it! ;)

 I want to be the girl that  has complete control over my heart, I want to do my best to guard it and not to keep falling for awesome guys with amazing personalities! Now that is going to be much harder than the prior want! :) Oh well. God will give my the strength I need! I know he will honor that desire if I honor him! :)

 

 

Mood:  sharp
Now Playing: Make me wanna die- The pretty reckless
Topic: ~Life~
I want to be an awesome persuader, influencer, motivator, leader and role model. I want my personality to ooz comfidence, happiness, excitment, adventure, compassion, love, loyalty, truth, determination, passion, power, kindess..etc...I might just write more on this! Later...? hmmm... :) ;) =}

I had an amazing time in my Stress Management class. I learned so many things. I

learned that it is important to control stress. I also learned that controlling stress is

important and beneficiary. It was just an eye-opening experience.

    I believe almost everyone if not everyone in the world could gain some knowledge

 or benefit from taking this class. Relaxing and learning about stress, who wouldn’t

benefit from it? I am serious! I certainly did! The breathing exercises are relaxing and

almost hypnotizing. I did not have to worry about a bunch of homework, which is also

very relaxing and nice.
   
    One of themes of the class to me was not blowing experiences, actions or

responsibilities and disappointments out of proportion. The idea is to deal, but mot dwell.

One can even dwell too much on a death of a loved one too much. Everyone grieves at

different rates, nevertheless this grieving can get out of hand. I have lost a brother and  a

sister and I believe it is very possible to do this.

    Sometimes people have the belief that after a loss of a loved one or idol or

someone else that the world is over. It is not. Neither is their life, which people also tend

to believe. I know I thought after the loss of my brother that I would never be happy

again. That was a lie.

    Some of my class mates and friends and family accept the theory that they have

no control over their emotions, their achievements and life. Those are some of the most

deceptive and yet somehow easy to believe lies out there in the world. I have learned in

this class how to decipher which are important or not, in or out of control and urgent or

not urgent experiences and actions.

    If people would just believe the truth instead of the lies. Others just need to stop

 

being so lazy and realize what is important and urgent. I guess some people just cannot

comprehend the difference or just deny the facts of life. This class has helped me

understand that life is hard, but we can make a big impact on other people if we decide

we want to. I want other people to realize that they are capable of that scary word called

change. It is not always as hard as it seems. Once one has support and someone’s who

truly believes in them, one can definitely make a huge alteration to this world around

them and also to their own lives and lives of others.
 

Fye Class (what I learned in it about myself)
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Desires :)

As much as I strive to stand out ; I also crave acceptance as much or more than everyone else. 

I wnat to seen as a unique person. I do not like to blend in. I long for value. To feel valued by others and to truly show others their value no matter who they are, or how they feel. These desires are conflict.

 

Every time I fail I become more driven to do better, to achieve success no matter if the success is what I pictured or not. Sometimes I lose this determination and other times I keep it.  If I fail at something I really want to accomplish then I usaually end up feeling depressed. I have discovered that I want to help others learn that they are capable. They can do what they wish they could. 

 

I long to accomplish goals and meet standards. It does not matter if these goals or standards are mine or not. I desire to pass, not only pass, but excel with beautiful colors. I want to do well in life and in college.  I want to be the best I can be; the best person I am capable of.

 

I crave to be a better person. I strive for it even though it's a very tough. I do not want to be a stale, dull person that clings desperately to past beliefs or past habits. I have seen so many people just stay in their own pathetic habitual mistakes. At times they do not even realize what they are doing is a mistake or may be they just do not care. 

 

I want to challenge myself daily to  do better and to become a better person. I want to feel good and more importantly be good.  I want to help others. I feel at my best mostly when I am helping somone else. I used to help out at a Homeless shelter and then several years later I helped out at a food shelter (that was last year.)

 

I want to make a difference in others to know that there is a God and that he is a living God and not only that, but also that he is a loving God. Many people beieve in God or a "higher power."

The people who do not believe in God seem like they are bitter towards anyone who is and/ or this God they supposedly do not believe in. God does not make bad things happen to people. God allows it or the people themselves allow it. 

 

 (Written on May 9, 2010!)

:) 

 

 

One of my main goals this summer is to have a Davis Pierce free summer! And to get over him. That means no wanting or needing to impress him, getting his attention or letting him control my happiness! I will have complete control over my anything relating to him. Which means no searching for his face in crowds of people, needing or wanting to look at him a second time if I see him...etc..etc..etc! ;) hahhahaha 

One of my other goals is to have the best summer I have ever had! :) Which means it has to be filled with really fun activities.  So yes...it is going to happen! ;)