Too much time with family, too little time with friends.
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Where are you now by Justin Bieber
Topic: Lonely
Man, this Justin Beiber song is making me bawl my eyes out. Just what I needed, no sarcasm. So tired of being left behind. Friends are always busy, especially those I want to see the most. Why? I want to find a job, but I cannot. Too far away, or not experienced enough or not old enough or some other issue. Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore. I do not want to keep living like this. Take me and renew me. I am tired of "this" person I am. Why is it when I need the people the closest to me; they are gone? Or not available? I am so depressed today. I really do not understand why or how I got this way. I wish boys/men would be honest about how they are instead of always pretending that they are okay when they are not. Sadness is not weakness it is an emotion/feeling. If God didn't want boys/men to cry he would not have given them tear ducts. Real men cry. I thought that I was mostly done with being so overwhelmed and depressed. I thought it was my turn to help someone else. Why is this emptiness suddenly becoming impossible to bare? Why is it suddenly so much worse?

Wish come true!!!!!!! :)
Mood:  energetic
I get to go to Six Flags in California this weekend! Yes! I am so freakin' hackin' excited & ecstatic! Thanks God! You made my wish come true! 

Three of my biggest wishes concerning my desires :)
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Free to be me- Francesca Battiselli

I want to be content in whatever dilemma I am in or whatever phase or step I am taking in life! I want to find enjoyemnt in all the little pleasures of life! Focus on those when everything seems to be going horribly!

 I want to be the girl no guy can have! I alreday am! I love my sucecss! And God's protection also has had a lot to do with it! ;)

 I want to be the girl that  has complete control over my heart, I want to do my best to guard it and not to keep falling for awesome guys with amazing personalities! Now that is going to be much harder than the prior want! :) Oh well. God will give my the strength I need! I know he will honor that desire if I honor him! :)

 

 

Mood:  sharp
Now Playing: Make me wanna die- The pretty reckless
Topic: ~Life~
I want to be an awesome persuader, influencer, motivator, leader and role model. I want my personality to ooz comfidence, happiness, excitment, adventure, compassion, love, loyalty, truth, determination, passion, power, kindess..etc...I might just write more on this! Later...? hmmm... :) ;) =}

I had an amazing time in my Stress Management class. I learned so many things. I

learned that it is important to control stress. I also learned that controlling stress is

important and beneficiary. It was just an eye-opening experience.

    I believe almost everyone if not everyone in the world could gain some knowledge

 or benefit from taking this class. Relaxing and learning about stress, who wouldn’t

benefit from it? I am serious! I certainly did! The breathing exercises are relaxing and

almost hypnotizing. I did not have to worry about a bunch of homework, which is also

very relaxing and nice.
   
    One of themes of the class to me was not blowing experiences, actions or

responsibilities and disappointments out of proportion. The idea is to deal, but mot dwell.

One can even dwell too much on a death of a loved one too much. Everyone grieves at

different rates, nevertheless this grieving can get out of hand. I have lost a brother and  a

sister and I believe it is very possible to do this.

    Sometimes people have the belief that after a loss of a loved one or idol or

someone else that the world is over. It is not. Neither is their life, which people also tend

to believe. I know I thought after the loss of my brother that I would never be happy

again. That was a lie.

    Some of my class mates and friends and family accept the theory that they have

no control over their emotions, their achievements and life. Those are some of the most

deceptive and yet somehow easy to believe lies out there in the world. I have learned in

this class how to decipher which are important or not, in or out of control and urgent or

not urgent experiences and actions.

    If people would just believe the truth instead of the lies. Others just need to stop

 

being so lazy and realize what is important and urgent. I guess some people just cannot

comprehend the difference or just deny the facts of life. This class has helped me

understand that life is hard, but we can make a big impact on other people if we decide

we want to. I want other people to realize that they are capable of that scary word called

change. It is not always as hard as it seems. Once one has support and someone’s who

truly believes in them, one can definitely make a huge alteration to this world around

them and also to their own lives and lives of others.